Today, I am continuing with the creative #Actctober2021 Tarot Challenge hosted by @GlitterbyInk and @LivingJivaWell
The prompt: Today, how will I act with honesty?
Decks: The Urban Tarot by Robin Scott and Kim Tsan’s The Spread Machine + Oracle
I took a slightly different approach today because, well because I felt like it and because I can. I decided to consciously draw an extra prompt card from The Spread Machine + Oracle Deck and then let the Tarot deck decide what cards to show me.
Conscious draw – Truth
What do I need to recognise right now?
What tough love messages do I need to hear today?
How can I gain more clarity and insight?
Unconscious draw – Ace & the Prince of Swords
OK. Isn’t it just utterly f•cking fascinating that on a day when I am consulting the Tarot on how to act with Honesty and Truth the cards that come up for me are the Ace and Prince of Swords?
Well, it’s fascinating to me not least because, when I drew up a list of my conscious card choices for the #Actober2021 Tarot Challenge right at the beginning of the month, the Ace and King of Swords were the two that I was considering for this day.
Of course, I’ve experienced synchronicity like this with the Tarot many times before, but it never fails to blow my mind.
Mind. Blown.
And with all that said, I really can’t not pay close attention to this card combination, can I?
The Ace of Swords is a symbol of truth and clarity, the Prince, a truth seeker. And a truth speaker, even at the risk of being a little cold or cruel.
Right now there is a dark cloud gathering and threatening to disturb the relative peace and quiet of my life. An imminent change of circumstances for someone whose life touches mine threatens to upset the fine balance that has existed between us for a while now. That this fragile peace has existed at all is mostly due to geographical distance. All this may be about to change.
The Ace of Swords can be a signal of big change. Huge.
The truth is I am totally avoidant when it comes to confrontation and speaking hard truths. I’m great on paper and clearly brilliant ? at telling other people how to handle difficult conversations and situations, but not so much in my own life.
So there have been many things left unsaid. And I am stealing myself, have been for a while, because I know that if I’m to handle this next little chapter at all well, I am going to have to speak some truths. My truth. Or at least some of it.
And stand my ground.
Find the words and stand my ground. Lay down my boundaries. I’m notoriously bad at this, folks. It’s not that I’m entirely unboundaried – quite the opposite. It’s more that I don’t articulate my boundaries very well and then I get very upset when people encroach or ask too much of me (why can’t they just feel my boundaries?) and I am forced to speak, or, God forbid, say “no”.
Or, I suffer in resentful silence (muttering all the while in my head) and then, of course, it all comes out somehow and that can be awful – like a not very well controlled explosion.
I suppose that the whole point of boundaries is that they are clearly marked for all concerned. No good left unspoken. No good expecting people to somehow intuit them.
Although, that would be great, wouldn’t it?
Anyway. F*cking Yikes.
I am going to have to weather this storm that’s coming. If it comes. It might not. Sometimes I am surprised by this person, but mostly not.
I need to find a way to speak my honest truth and stand my ground. Clear the Air.
I also need to take a good long look at myself and my part in all this bad weather we’ve been having.
The truth is a double-edged sword.
So, how will I act with honesty today?
Today, I speak my honest truth and I stand my ground. I set down my boundaries and I do so in good faith, with love and respect and with the intention for the highest good for myself and those whose lives touch mine.
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